Feast of Heaven

Contradictions of my heart

"I just want to be alone, but I don't want to be alone anymore...."

I recently wrote a song based on that phrase.  It popped into my head one day, and was born of a spontaneous moment of honesty.  Selfishly, I desire my "down time--" some unquestioned indulgence in solitary peace and quiet-- but am simultaneously struck with the fear of being left alone in the end.  I desire the absolute freedom of independence and yet still long for the promise of intimacy and comraderie, to know that "someone's on my team." 

Ultimately, I can see that both sides of the coin can only truely be met in Jesus.   He is our Peace, our rest.  And He is the One that sticks closer than a brother. 

Funny how we like to think we are such complex beings, creatures of enigma and mystery.  The answer is simple.  It's Jesus.

posted by Jules @ Tuesday, July 27, 2004