Longing for affinity--for true, unshaken hearts who uphold painstaking purity.
Repulsed by mixture; yearning for wholeness.
The beauty of Jesus and His heart. Where else would we go? You alone hold the keys to eternal life.
When we seek man's approval and adoration, we steal that which belongs to God. Selling pieces of our souls for meagre recognition. Settling for worldly pleasure in the place of that for which we were created.
Secrecy kills fellowship.
Secret sin, like a weed, strangles the vine.
Who am I? Not anyone smarter or wiser or purer than the most grievous sinner. But my heart is breaking. Compromise does not belong here. Am I to make apologies? I can no longer pretend that it is okay to strip the word of God into pleasing, more palatable pieces for the sake of our own comfort and the perpetuation of sin.
I, the guiltiest of guilty, have nothing more to offer than the burden of desire for more. More than we have allowed ourselves to accept as sufficient. I sense the beauty of Jesus and nothing else seems to matter. How, once we have tasted of His goodness, can we settle for less than all that He has? I know that the cost is great, but is not the payoff so much greater?
I pray that you will hear my heart. I pray that you can look past my incoherent ramblings and will sense the true groanings of my spirit. Don't let my choice of words deter you. Hear the message behind them. Jesus is calling us to sacrifice. The life He can bring is so much greater than the lives we seek to save on our own strength. Feeling beautiful or appreciated or loved is not the ultimate objective of our lives. Please don't let your flesh win another battle. Those who seek to save their lives will lose their lives. But those who lose their lives for His sake will find them.
Deep calls to deep and my words are insufficient.
posted by Jules @ Monday, April 24, 2006
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